Done

Taking a break from the fetish community.  I haven't lost the desires, and I am not purging my toys as some often do, but I've had far too many negative experiences with self-proclaimed "dominant" men  lately.  I might still attend queer orientated events, but I'm not doing this thing with cis-men anymore.  They just aren't my thing and I'm starting to realize that just because I enjoy "hetero" sex, doesn't mean it has to involve men.

Need to change my life...

And it goes on and on and on...

My journey just keeps moving forward, sometimes faster than I can keep up.  I try to remember to update this blog, but it falls by the wayside as my life sweeps my feet out from under me and carries me on the current.  My first weekend with Master J and Lady H went spectactular, so much so that I am now serving as their submissive.  The photo shoot had its ups and downs but overall, I think it went really well and can't wait to see how my return to porn is recieved :)

I'm on my way back to see them this weekend and can't wait.  I feel an odd sense of safety around them, like I can be myself, I can relax and know that they aren't going to think I'm a total nut.  The only downside is that I won't be seeing them again until after my sister is married in September, there just won't be any time.  I'm exited to see my little sister married, but it's a shame that I have to wait that long until I see them again.

Dahlia is growing bigger, and I recently upgraded her to a larger tank which she immediately explored.  If snakes had expressions, I'd say she was delighted.  I've got her in proper lighting too and you can tell it's had a profound effect on her as she's wandering around her tank every night and seems much more content with her surroundings.  It makes me happy.  The cats have rediscovered her now that she's left her temporary home in my closet, but a couple squirt bottle spritzes have stopped them from trying to climb on the tank.  My kitties are so good :)

Anyways, on the ferry right now, pondering how lonely the ocean is.  Talk soon :)

Days go by...

Things are looking up these days, something I wasn't sure I'd ever be able to say. I'm doing my first photoshoot as a model in over two years, with a couple from the Island that I'm meeting this weekend, and then modeling for at the end of July. It's a very cool fairy tale inspired shoot, and I'm super excited to be a part of it.

I'm also (potentially) going to be submitting to them - I told Master J that I was putting myself in their capable hands and that they could decide what would or would not happen. I'm torn between paralyzing fear and crazy excitement, which is a pretty wild combination that leaves me somewhat damp and squirming. We shall see how everything goes.

I have photographed Delilah Diabolic again and she has a very promising career in burlesque, she had a really rough show, but if you didn't know how she rehearsed her routine, you'd never have known, she held herself together great. It was her first paid gig which had her over the moon happy. She did spectacular and I'm so proud to be following her career as her "official" photographer.

This blog might be moving soon! I'm looking at potentially registering the domain name and linking it up to my hosting site once I've got a stronger grasp on wordpress. I'm learning it right now as part of my "real" job as a marketing assistant and digital media person so we'll see how that goes.

Anyways, I must be off. Love and perverted kisses to all.

Subversion is the key,

K

New Pet

 

I am the proud owner of a little butter motley corn snake! SO much excitment. I'm also photographing Delilah Diabolic again tonight, so enjoy the snake pics and stay tuned for updates!

A year!

I can't believe it's been over a year since I last posted in this blog! Since last year, I've seperated from J and begun my journey back to kink and polyamory as a happier and emotionally healthier human being. Things are so different these days. I dropped out of college in August and spent six months job hunting until I finally started work in February of this year. I'm in reception and marketing at a custom timber frame housing company and love my job.

I also finally moved out for what is hopefully the last time. I found a cute little suite in Aldergrove, not far from work and I bike to and from work every day which has resulted in an hour of cardio. Will know next week if it's doing anything as I only just started biking on a regular basis.
I got my learners in June last year and am nearly at the end of it. After I return from a trip to Edmonton to see my friends, I'll be allowed to take my N and see if I can drive all by my lonesome.




My photography isn't paying the bills yet, but I've been doing so much of it, that I'm really not worried. I just donated a $250 photo package to the BC Children's Hospital silent auction at the Royal Bank, and I've been out at events all over Vancouver, I got to watch and photograph the Terminal City Roller Girl's All-Star bout against Portland's Heartless Heathers (where they decimated the Heartless Heathers 170-58. I love my roller girls)




I also got to participate in the first Slut Walk in Vancouver this year It was inspirational to hear the rousing speeches and watch as 2000 people grouped together to walk for the rights of rape victims. Signs like "Respect is sexy" "I'm wearing my "Rape Me" socks" and "I take No for an answer" filled the streets and the Vancouver Police did an admirable job protecting walkers, riding around on motorcycles and stopping traffic to allow us to pass.

That's all for today's updates.

Subversion is the key,

K

Sorting Life...

I'm working my way bit by bit through life these days. I was sick for two weeks and have only been back at school for a week. But the point is I'M HERE! I missed school - daytime televsion is the pits!

Both litters of kittens my cat studded for have been born. Four each, and all eight have opened their eyes. There's two really sweet white ones, two dark tabbys, three black, and one - for some reason - orange. They are super sweet. Puff, my ex's cat, has moved her kittens under the bed now that they are moving around. Boobs' kittens aren't moving as much yet. No walking at least. Mum has said that I can have one, bringing the total of cats in our once cat-free house to two. Hopefully I will move downstairs soon and then, who knows.

I'm getting my tattoo worked on today. It's been almost a year since I started it, and I'm stoked to get more work done finally. I'll post pictures soon!

Anyways, off I dash. Must pay attention to class.
-K

Lost

You're walking through my thoughts,
Running through my dreams
And all at once I have to wonder
If anything is what it seems

If the choice I made
On that cool winter night
Was the thing to make me happy
The thing to make it right

What I thought would happen
The reason I went away
Has been growing colder
Cannot be kept at bay

So I sit here thinking
Of all that we did share
I wonder if you still love me
I wonder if you care

Or is it too late...