Almost two years ago now I dated a couple in Chilliwack that opened my eyes to a whole other world, to everything I'd been missing out on in the BDSM community (it's hard to believe I've been in and out of it for that long) though I'd been into it for years before that.
Lately I've been missing them something fierce. Katt helped me see that there was no shame in depression, in feeling like something was wrong and asking for help. Though it's only been recently that I have, in fact, reached out for help, if I had never met her I may never have bothered. Seeing the support she had from Wolfe was inspiring and I thought if I could find someone like that, I'd be able to make it through the damaging lifestyle that my depression was causing.
Today I'm having a bad day. Just emotionally and for no particular reason. I've made the decision to return to school next week - I was considoring quitting and it was a scary decision to make. I just feel... bad. I want to sleep all day but I know that if I'm returning to school on Monday I need to get into a normal sleep schedule. Or at least semi-normal. And I have no appetite today, though I know I SHOULD eat. I want to curl up and hide from the world today and it's taking a great amount of will not to do just that. I barely slept last night as usual and am wishing that one of the sleeping pills at the hospital had caused SOME sort of effect other than sleeplessness.
Won't someone save me from this pit?
Love and Kisses,
Andro Angel
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