New

Things that are new this week:

A new "relationship"
Ok so it's not exactly new and it's not exactly a relationship, but it's a good thing, even if it's just being figured out right now. We're deciding on boundries and are in agreement on everything so far. He's trans so it's it's really important to him that he's not in anything committed until after his transition, which I fully understand. I've heard alot of people say that when they started to transition, their relationship failed. But it's good. I really like him, he's amazingly sweet and seems to genuinely care, which I'm still getting used to. I've had people pretend to care before (see: D) and it's taken some time to get back to where I can actually believe it.

A new job
Temporary, but it means that until the company I'm working for can find a new receptionist, I am officially working 68+ hours a week (this depends on whether or not I pick up Fridays. If so, it'll be 76 hours). And since they need to find someone with Simply Accounting, I may be here awhile (I looooove having a computer at work that I'm allowed to use during break time!)

A new blog
I've started a blog specifically for my dirty dirty writing. Lots of lesbians and vampires and bondage, so go check it out. I'll be starting to post sometime this week or next. Not from work obviously lol.

Love and Kisses,
Andro Angel

Pride and Prejudice...

I am proud because I have aquired a second, if temporary job, working as a secretary at a company that builds incredible homes. I am proud because my close friend is working a job that he loves and because he can walk taller at that job with the bind I gave him. I am proud of my friends that are deeply in love and planning to get engaged.

I am proud of myself for getting into my school of choice and not giving into the emotional pressure that begged me not to bother trying. I am proud of myself for being strong and standing up to the people that were hurting me, even if they turned against me in the end.

I am proud of the friends that have ignored the rumors and the lies and stood by me. I am proud of those who have showed they are true and ashamed that I was blinded by the false ones who so readily believe and spread hate about me.

I am tired of the prejudice against me because I spoke my mind against my roommate who sat around like a lump in my home for next to no rent, not working, not cleaning up after anything unless I got angry at her, while I worked so she could eat, so we had electricity and internet (which she used guiltlessly). I am tired of people thinking that I mistreated her when I, at the suggestion of a "friend" asked her to leave my home. I was wrong in telling her to get out before the end of the weekend, but she was abusing my trust and my home and I corrected my misdeeds by allowing her as long as she needed (which turned out to be nearly three months) to get her things out of my apartment.

I am tired of being judged on my mistakes and not the good deeds that I try to do. I am tired of having to keep my mouth shut when people start to badmouth my friends because I'm so worried about telling them that they are wrong, because my honesty has been my undoing.

I try to remember the good in my life. I have three people that I am seeing, not dating, just spending good playful time with, I am due to attend an amazing school in March to further my career in photography, and I will be capable of paying for the rest of my body modifications before I return to school.

But the bad... the hatred and the whispers, the accusation that I ruined the relationship of my two friends because we are having fun together (all three of us, no exclusions), my so called childhood friend making me into a villian who mistreats her when I am simply calling her out on her own bad behavior... it seems so much bigger. And I am afraid because I don't know how much longer I can fight it off.

Love and Kisses,
Andro Angel

Thinking...

I've been thinking. And life is pretty good right now. Or it's going to be. It's not so great right at this moment, but I can see the future and the future is a wonderful place. I can't wait to see where it takes me.

Right now my life is kind of chaotic. I have lots to do before I move this week, I'm working at a porn shop in a less than nice area of town, my family is being a tad on the difficult side and my friends are entrenched in drama - not as much as the last few months, but it's still there. To top it all off, the emergency prescription for... whatever anti anxiety med I was on... that they gave me in the E.R. a few months ago is running out.

But I'm going to be moving home and bill free soon. In March I start school at Vancouver Institute of Media Arts to learn digital photography. I've started spending time with a VERY hot couple and an equally gorgeous single that has been leading to some interesting situations. My show starts next month and I think I've really got a chance to make it great. I've got a local gym that I'll be able to go to daily if I want to and hopefully WILL be going to daily, I'm making good money which is great for future usage.

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. And it's brilliant, blinding... incredible.

Love and Kisses,
Andro Angel

From the mouths of dykes...

On a quote from new book:

"Well that's pretty much what we said. 'Come over for dinner and movies' means the same thing as 'come over and I'll do terrible things to you' doesn't it?"

Cleaning...

I would like very much to have a magic wand so I might wave it around and have everything done please.

On top of everything I have left to do leading up to moving that the landlord requires (mainly vigorous scrubbing of all appliances and defrosting of fridge, vacuuming curtains etc.) I still have to:
clean the apartment
call the goodwill to haul away my ex boyfriend's furniture that he "gifted" to me so he didn't have to worry about it anymore
do half a zillion loads of dishes and laundry
send a bunch of furniture up to my sister
move the last remnants of it home
sort through dozens of boxes that never got sorted through before/after I moved because there was too much happening
decide when would be the least traumatic time to move my animals
figure out how to get blue hair dye courtesy of a ridiculous evening with Andrea and Robyn off of my bathroom ceiling (don't ask)
paint the second room at my mum's house
change the shower head and get mine installed in the bathroom at mum's house
talk John into letting me have the bathroom to myself
sort clothes into keep and give away piles
send clothes that are being given away to goodwill
make sure I haven't made any massive holes in the walls where I've hung art
if so, fix said holes
figure out how to hide the hole my rats chewed in the living room curtain or fix it

Oh and after I've moved everything and got myself settled... I have to pull off a drag show flawlessly mid September. And among all that I have to eat, sleep and work.
Gah.

Love and Kisses,
Andro Angel

Why didn't I think of this?

Despite that fact that I'm twenty years old and should have no apparent interest in the news, everyday I like to go to mytelus.com and check it out. Today, I had to share something, mainly because... it's insane!!!

Death row inmate Richard Cooey claims he's too fat to be executed

THE ASSOCIATED PRESS

COLUMBUS, Ohio - A death row inmate scheduled for execution says he's too fat to be put to death, claiming executioners would have trouble finding his veins and that his weight could diminish the effectiveness of one of the lethal injection drugs.

Lawyers for Richard Cooey argue in a federal lawsuit that Cooey - five-foot-seven and 267 pounds - had poor veins when he faced execution five years ago and the problem has been worsened by weight gain.

The lawsuit, filed Friday in federal court, also says prison officials have had difficulty drawing blood from Cooey for medical procedures.

Cooey, 41, is sentenced to die for raping and murdering two young women in 1986. His execution is scheduled for Oct. 14.

Two years ago, convicted killer Jeffrey Lundgren was put to death after a federal appeals court rejected his claim that he was at greater risk of experiencing pain and suffering because he was overweight and diabetic.

Now, maybe it's just me, but maybe he should have thought of "pain and suffering" when he was, oh say, raping and killing those two university students? To be honest, even as someone who rallies against the death penalty, I'm beginning to think he deserves it on the grounds that he feels he deserves better than two girls who were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. If you read the article, this guy has already had his execution delayed AND he's put on more weight since then! Hmmm... think there's a strategy here? Here's an idea. Put him on a diet and exercise regime! It's a prison, it's not like he can't be closely monitored to make sure he's not breaking the rules.

You can read the whole article here

It really just makes me sick that he's had the chance to put on weight when they know that it could cause problems. I have always felt that criminals are treated far too well and while I don't agree that they should be put to death, I also don't agree that they should get a free education (see Clifford Olsen and Charles Manson, both have earned degrees while in prison, on tax payer money) better food than I get, and the chance to get out so quickly. I don't believe people who murder should EVER be released and Canadian law is far too good to criminals.

That's just my thoughts...

Love and Kisses,

Andro Angel

Pride, Whoo!

Pride was awesome. I've got TONS of photos and I will be posting some once I get back from work.
Gah....
So don't want to work. Far too tired lol.

Love and Kisses,
Andro Angel